Hi, dreamers! Mei here. I think the last time I made a life update post is last year (read it here), it's quite long time, isn't it? So I decided to write this because I'm kinda....sad? I looked back at my old blog posts, artwork portfolio (because my head designer asking for my art portfolio), and stuff, then realized how many things I stop doing because of one reason and another.I know, as we grow older we will face a lot of changes but yeah...it's just heartbreaking hahaha. Looking at those things reminds me of how big my passion was and how I couldn't pass one day without doing/ thinking about it. I can say my life started to change after I'm working 9 to 6, not really in a bad way tho. I got a lot of new experiences and chances after working full time, but it's just not related to drawing or illustration anymore. I stop drawing for around one year already. Sometimes the desire is still there, but I'm too tired/lazy to do it (yes, excuse I know).
Oh, just to make sure, I actually love how my life is right now. I enjoy doing the things I'm doing now, but yeah the thoughts just pop out so I need to write it- for myself in the future, as a reminder and comparison. Here are some changes that happened lately:
✿ I no longer make new drawings/illustrations outside of office work (and I work as video editor)
✿ My passion in illustration somehow.... faded.
✿ I used to love blogging sooo much, posting about anything but now there are some "work" posts and I'm not writing as much as before (blame work again).
✿ I decided to break out of comfort zone: went casting for hair product videos, and chosen as the model.
✿ I stressed out a lot between working and blogging life. You know, like I want to focus on blogging but I need to work to pay the bills but then I also want to be a successful blogger. Something like that. Blogging used to be fun tho.
✿ It's so hard to do blogwalking now. I used to do it everyday.
✿ I decided to live healthier: eat right and do some workout. It worked well for 2 weeks but then there were some events that forced me to break that habit for awhile. I'm trying to be back on track now.
✿ I dyed my hair to dark and natural color, because of that video model project. Worth it.
✿ I, learn to let go. Once again. Realized that some things just won't change and decided to value myself more.
Okay, that's it. After writing this, I think I can actually do anything, as long as I have the will. Prioritizing time is the key tho. I want to do a lot of things but I always end up in bed and watching all day long. Changing habit is never easy, but I'll try to do some changes to be a better and more productive person! がんばります!
